Path: netnews.upenn.edu!news.cc.swarthmore.edu!psuvax1!news.pop.psu.edu!news.cac.psu.edu!howland.reston.ans.net!cs.utexas.edu!utnut!torn!uunet.ca!uunet.ca!news.sygma.net!magic!Monture_&_Wicks From: Monture_&_Wicks@magic.ca (Monture & Wicks) Reply-To: Monture_&_Wicks@magic.ca Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Distribution: world Subject: The Talisman 3/7 Date: 05 Dec 1994 01:29:02 GMT Message-ID: <4237815774.2173228@magic.ca> Organization: Magic Online Services Toronto Inc. Lines: 539 This is my first posting in this forum ... I hope everyone likes my story. It contains shamanism, shape-shifting, pseudo-science, and a lot of speculation. I started writing it after Scully disappeared, and this represents the way I would have like to have seen the plot develop, but alas ... and because I like Mulder, he is the central focus of this story. Also please note that the Mohawk words used are phonetic representations, rendered as much as possible in an English format. I have included a phonetic key at the end of the story. There are also aspects of this story that are not (and I repeat not) in keeping with traditional Native American practices, so don't for one minute think that it represents any of those sacred ceremonies and rites. I have ultimately created my own intepretation of what may or may not happen, but among my people, there are still those who practice the craft of the "wadayoneras". I hope I have treated the idea of their art with the respect and reverence that it deserves. This story is based on the characters and situations created by Chris Carter, Ten Thirteen Productions and the Fox Broadcasting Company. No infringement of copyright is intended. The Talisman ... An X-Files Tale (3 of 7 parts) Chapter 2 Daisy gave up on the idea of making Tehonig finish his lessons and set him up in the living room with the Star Wars trilogy on video. "Pay attention to the archetypal myths present in the subtext," she ordered before leaving the room. Tehonig only sighed and lost himself in the galaxy far, far away. Daisy wandered back upstairs and glanced in at the spare bedroom. Mulder was sprawled across the bedspread, a tangle of long limbs and wet towels. Daisy smiled and gently closed the door. He was an enigma, this strange FBI agent, she mused, going into her bedroom to stare at her image in the mirror. He was also very good-looking, to the point of distraction. She decided she especially liked his sleepy-lidded eyes and his low-pitched voice, the way his mouth looked like it needed to be kissed. She also liked the fact that he was taller than her. That was definitely a rarity in her experience. She shook herself firmly. "You've been alone far too long, Degonawadonti," she told herself. She pulled her hair out of the ponytail and shook it out, making a face at her image. "What a mess I am. I can't believe I let him see me like this. In the old days I would have run away screaming," she said, and laughed at her own vanity. "Ah yes, Degonawadonti, what is a wadayoneras but vain in thinking she holds the world in her palm?" came a subvocalized voice, speaking slowly in English. In the mirror, over her shoulder, she could see the faint outline that marked the materializing presence of Degasaheh, the Teaching Spirit. She never saw more than a hand, or the silhouette of a body, but she knew the warmth of this essence and the wisdom of its words to her. "What say you, Teacher?" she said softly, switching to Mohawk. "What wisdom do you have for me regarding this man who has strange insight into things he cannot hold?" There was something like a chuckle. "He is tied too tightly to things beyond his ken for you to hold onto, Degonawadonti. He has been touched by forces that even I do not understand." "He searches for something. What is it?" "He searches for someone, and something more elusive than that. He searches for the truth." "There are all kinds of truth." "Correct, but this Mulder, this Tasitsho -- he seeks far beyond this world. He will travel into places we dare not imagine, and we cannot help him. He is a journeyer who is but passing through." There was a slight pause, as though Degasaheh was thinking. "It would be wise to assist this man. He brings much that is good with him. He needs your help on his journey." "Then he needs a talisman," said Daisy thoughtfully. "Maybe a ceremony would help him in recognizing such a thing." She smiled. "It would be a good trade." She could feel rather than see Degasaheh shrug. "If he will accept such, it would bring him that which he could hold onto." "Then we will strive to make that so," she said, determined. Degasaheh was gone. She shivered in its passing and whispered the prayer of thanksgiving. She decided she would broach the topic with Mulder later. Perhaps he would delay his return to Albany, especially if he wanted to get a look at Arrowhead Peak. Odd, she thought. For the first time in at least three years, she was thinking in English again, and was amazed at how subtly restructured she had become. Looking critically at her reflection, she decided to take a shower too. When she got out, she paid far more attention to her appearance than she had in the past three years. In the back of her closet she found a red velvet dress that was a relic of her wild days but still loved the cut and feel of, especially against her naked skin. This went on over a pair of black leggings and black suede boots. She chose a vial of amber perfume oil, dabbed in several secret places. Grinning at herself, she dug out a makeup bag from the depths of the dresser counter and rooting around it, found an old kohl eyeliner and her favourite red lipstick. "May as well go all out," she told herself. On her way downstairs, she glanced in at Mulder. He was still out of it. She smiled. Catnip tea never failed to relax a person, she mused. The phone suddenly rang and she ran downstairs. Tehonig had picked up the cordless in the living room. "Sago," he said. He paused. In Mohawk he said, "Hello, Mother. No, I am watching the moving picture play called Star Wars. Akwatonteh is upstairs. No, I do not think -- okay, I will speak English." He paused again, and his little face fell. "If you want me to, Mommy. It doesn't matter to me, but I did want to see you ..." Daisy snatched the phone from her nephew. "Denene, what's going on?" she demanded of her younger sister. Inwardly she sighed. Denene was flighty and unreliable, sometimes to the point of irresponsibility. Denene was breathless in the phone. "Hi, Daze -- listen, can you keep Tehonig one more night? I'll come pick him up in the morning, I promise. It's just that Steven from work -- you remember him, don't you --?" Daisy sighed audibly this time. "Well, Denene, to tell the truth, I was expecting to come into the city tonight. I'm dropping off a guest --" "Guest? Who is it?" Her voice was shrill with anticipation. Daisy winced and held the phone away from her ear. "Hey, did you know that some FBI agent went off the road about five miles from your place and they said he's missing and presumed dead? Did you see anything? Apparently hikers found the car around 11 o'clock." "No ... me and Tehonig were out at Fort Plain this morning," she lied. Tehonig looked up at his name, but kept silent, instantly understanding the need for secrecy. "We haven't seen anything." "Well, I saw his picture on the news. He's really cute." The really cute agent that Denene was reporting on was coming down the stairs, looking still a little dazed with sleep. The suit was gone, replaced by a faded green sweatshirt and black jeans that hung quite nicely on his lean frame. He started to speak, but she motioned for him to be silent. "That's pretty wild, Deen. Okay, well -- call me before you come out. Me and Tehonig will nuke some popcorn and watch a flick, I guess. See you tomorrow." She rapidly hung up over her sister's protests. "What time is it?," asked Mulder. "I really didn't mean to fall asleep again --" "You needed it," she said. "Your body probably did not get the kind of rest it needed, and now you have." She caught him looking at her with an appreciative eye and blushed. He can probably tell I'm not wearing anything underneath, she thought, half dismally, half anticipatory. She steeled herself, determined not to expose her longings and thus avoid rejection. "There has been a slight change of plans," she told him. "My sister will not be home, so Tehonig will be staying with me one more night. We can still drive you into Albany, if you want. But there is one more thing -- apparently your accident and subsequent failure to check in with your office has led to your being placed on a missing persons alert. Did you not mention your name when you checked in with the rental agency?" He looked puzzled, his eyes narrowing. Daisy ignored just how attractive that furrowed brow made him appear. "I gave them the license plate number, but it's not that difficult to trace me from that. Let me borrow your phone again, and I'll let them know I'm not dead..." he trailed off then, and all sleepiness left his face. "This report that you've heard about, what exactly did it say?" "All I know is what my sister told me. She said that apparently your car was found and your name and picture released, and that you are missing and presumed dead." This news made his eyes narrow even more. "Why would your office jump to such a conclusion?" "My office would never issue such a statement," he said firmly. "Some other agency is deliberately planting misinformation." "But why would they say you are dead?" she asked. He shrugged. "There's any number of reasons why. Too long of a story to go into right now." She studied him and was about to say something when Tehonig bolted suddenly upright, turning his head sharply like a hawk. "Degonawadonti," he intoned in that weird, sad voice that marked a spirit presence. "There are strange men coming. They intend to do harm. You must not let them know about Tehoniguratheh, and most of all, you must not let them find Tasitsho." The boy looked at Mulder with his strangely sightless eyes. "They would like to kill you, but they dare not. Instead they will take you, and they will hurt you, and you will suffer." Daisy immediately went to the window. One of those black, non-descript cars that governmental agencies seem so fond of was driving cautiously up the hill. Mulder was behind her, pulling aside the curtain. They could make out the vague outlines of two men in the front seat. "Tehonig, take Tasitsho and go to the attic," she ordered. "Don't make a sound." Mulder started to protest. "Do as I say," she commanded, putting all her will behind her voice, and he involuntarily stepped towards the staircase. "Tasitsho," said the spirit voice. "If you have a weapon, take it with you." Mulder didn't hesitate at this; he took Tehonig's hand and drew the somnabulent boy with him. Daisy went into the kitchen and stepped out onto the porch, steeling herself for confrontation, stepping to the edge so that the height would give her an advantage. The car pulled to a stop behind her Pathfinder and two men got out. One was very big and wore sunglasses, putting one hand inside a front pocket as if to check on his weapon. The other man, who had been driving, had that kind of bland white man's face that she would never commit to memory, the features so very even as to be nondescript. They both wore regulation black trenchcoats over grey suits. The driver paused to light a cigarette, looking at Daisy's house with distaste. She hoped they hadn't seen Mulder, standing in the window of the attic, his gun drawn and gripped tightly in his hand. She crossed her arms over her chest and waited, calming herself and calling inwardly upon the Thunderers, whose strength she would need. They walked quickly up to the porch and stood awkwardly beneath her. The large one mirrored her stance and the bland one stepped forward. "Are you Margaret Daisy Van Leeuwan?" he asked. His voice was as bland as his looks. "I must be," she allowed. "Let's skip the formality, shall we? You obviously know who I am." "We know how distrustful you are of authority, Ms Van Leeuwan," he said, his smooth voice almost jovial. "But if you aid us in a little matter we are investigating, we won't bring up the matter of the death of Charles Vincent Bowden, dead eight years without charges ever being laid." She grinned sharply, thinking of wolves. The large man stiffened, his hand going back inside his coat. "I'm shaking," she said. "Don't get cheeky," said the bland man. "We know how that company covered for you. You must have been fucking somebody higher than old Bowden for them to want to protect your ass the way they did." Her grin got toothier. "You're very rude, Mr. Secret Government Agency Man. What are you looking for? You haven't even told me why you're being so insulting. Let me guess -- you found my pirated copy of _Casablanca_ and you're coming to arrest me?" "We're looking for someone," and he nodded at the large man, who brought out a photo of Mulder. She glanced quickly at it, noting it didn't do the man justice. "He's a renegade agent who has a habit of breaking into secure government facilities. His car went off the road about five miles back, and we're looking for him. Have you seen him?" "No," she said. "And even if I had, why should I tell you?" She smiled serenely at them. "Your facilities must not be very secure if a lone man can break into one." The large man stirred then, and brought out his gun. "Because we told you to," he growled. "Now I'm really shaking," she purred. She was enjoying herself, she realized. Her days of isolation and intense education in the ways of the wayonderas had led her to a kind of preternatural confidence. She felt the power of the Thunderers descend around her, charging her skin and hair. The bland man stepped onto her porch, coming literally toe-to-toe with Daisy. She did not move, and could feel his cigarette breath on her face. She stared into his ordinary blue eyes and felt him waver, only slightly. "We're going to take a look inside your house," he said. "Where's your warrant?" she commanded. He nodded at the large man. "That's my warrant. Now get out of the way, Pocohontas, or I'm going to get mad." She turned towards her door. "Go ahead, if you can get in." He nodded at the large man, who followed him up on the porch. He tried the door, but it would not open. "Come on, open it," he barked at Daisy. She shrugged, opening her arms, palm up. "Sorry, don't have a key." The bland man rattled the door again, then nodded at the large man, who began backing up to push it open with his shoulder. At that instant, Daisy visualized opening the latch to the dog kennel and spoke urgently in her head to Sowahs, the pack leader. The large German Shepherd-Husky cross was around the side of the house and at the throat of the large man before Daisy had finished speaking to him, the two Retrievers helping Sowahs pull him down. The large man was yelping in the same frantic pitch as the dogs. Iatseh, the lead female, cornered the bland one and had him pressed up against the door frame. Before he could draw his weapon, Daisy slipped neatly between him and Iatseh and casually withdrew the gun from the shoulder holster under his left arm. "I'm sorry, but my guard dogs just don't like letting people into the house," she explained cheerfully. She waved the gun under the bland one's nose. "Now, if you please, I have not seen this person, nor do I expect to. There's not much cover around here; you should be able to pick him up quite quickly, if you're clever. Which I doubt." The bland man's face became mottled with angry red blotches. "You bitch," he hissed. "You're gonna regret this!" "I'll be sure and tell my congressperson about the quality of our public servants," she continued, fitting the gun to his ribs. "Now, Mr Secret Government Agency Man and hired lackey -- get the hell off my land!" She chuckled to herself. "I've always wanted to say that." She marched him down and back into his car. Sowahs and Iatseh followed the large one closely, occasionally taking painful little nips at his backside and growling most impressively. She kept the gun trained on them as the bland one threw the car in reverse and tore off down the hill. She lowered the weapon as the car disappeared down the hill. Tehonig burst out of the house then, Mulder following. "Akwatonteh!" he called. "You were like Clint Eastwood or something. That was way cool." She ruffled his thick black hair. "Not that cool, little one. They will be back, and with more people." She looked up at Mulder. "We are going to have to leave here." He nodded. "I gathered that." She looked past the house, to the hidden trail leading into the river valley and beyond that, to the ancient escarpment called Big Nose. "We could conceivably kill two birds with one stone," she mused. "We could go hide up at my moonlodge, and that would give you an up close and personal look at Arrowhead Peak." "Moonlodge?" he asked, studying her. She smiled at him, feeling a sense of adrenalin-inspired victory and close on the heels of that, lust. "It's sort of my private little meditation and ceremonial retreat," she replied. "In the old days, women would leave their village during their menstrual cycle in order to conduct the women's rituals and take a break from their families. I use it for the same reason, but I also have a sweatlodge and many of my visionquest tools are there." She looked up at the sky, gauging the time. "We will have to hurry, though -- it's about an hour's worth of hiking, and the sun's going to go down in about that length of time. Tehonig, pack up your overnight gear bag. I'll grab some food. Tasitsho, you're going to have to bring your things with you, or they will give you away." He stared hard at her. "I don't think you have thought about the consequences of aiding me," he began. "These people are ruthless; you could be setting you and Tehonig up for serious trouble." He looked troubled. "I don't want to feel that I am the cause of any difficulty." She went to him and put a hand to his chest, feeling his heart beat through the fabric of his sweatshirt, stilled her hand from exploring the hard muscles she felt beneath. "I have been instructed to help you," she said softly. "This command is not one that can be easily ignored. And anyway, there is the possibility that will make a good trade." She pulled her hand away and straightened. "And I don't believe you can ignore our help, not now." He shrugged. "I guess not." "You must gather your things, and quickly," she urged, turning back to the house. "We don't have much time." She strode into the house and felt Mulder hesitate for the briefest of instants before he followed her. She spent her time going through the cupboards and filled a bag with various groceries, enough for two days. She found a large plastic picnic jug to fill from the spring behind the sweatlodge and then raced upstairs two at a time, grabbing a change of dark clothing from her bedroom. She pulled a black polar fleece jacket from her closet on the way out. Downstairs Mulder and Tehonig were waiting, the boy wearing a back pack over his weatherproof black jacket and black pants, his hiking boots tapping out a rhythm of impatience. Daisy saw that he was brimming over with an excited and apprehensive tension, and sent a calming thought in his direction. He looked up at her and nodded, trying his best to relax. She kicked off her boots and laced on her hiking boots, zippering the jacket up when she finished. Mulder was wearing a blue all-weather jacket and had slung his overnight bag over his shoulder. His expression was quietly watchful, but the waves of tension emanating from him had a life of their own. She grabbed up her buckskin bag and the groceries from the kitchen counter, stuffing them in a backpack and slung it onto her back. "Let's go," she commanded. They followed her out to the back of the house. At a hand signal from her, Sowahs and the Retrievers retreated back to their kennel, but Iatseh joined them. Iatseh, mostly Husky but crossed with some wolf, was an uncanny watchdog and would serve them well. She led the way onto the path, pulling a flashlight out of a flap on the backpack and carrying it loosely in one hand. Tehonig scrambled to the front and soon disappeared into the bush ahead of them, Iatseh at his heels. Mulder paced her without a sound. The path snaked ever upward into the heavily wooded hills, and the already gloomy day was fast coming to an end. "This trail isn't very well marked," he noted. "No, I decided long ago I wouldn't leave any visible traces so that if ever I got into any kind of trouble, the moonlodge could also be a kind of sanctuary. I'm glad I had that kind of foresight." "I'm glad you did, too." He was silent for awhile, and then asked softly, "Are you lonely here, Daisy?" It was the first time he had called her by name, and she liked the way he said it. It really did make her sound like a flower. "Sometimes I am, but mostly I'm not. I am surrounded by many things, Tasitsho -- things that most people cannot or refuse to see. Our society has taught us to close our minds and our eyes against things which we cannot touch with our hands, and so our hearts remain closed to the myriad possibilities which, contrary to popular belief, do exist." He chuckled softly. "Tell me about it," he said. "I've spent most of my career investigating things which most people dismiss quickly and with disgust, because their belief system is too narrow or not equipped to deal with something outside the ordinary. But there are a lot of things which are dismissible and I'm starting to think that maybe there is nothing paranormal." He was silent again. She measured the silence in heartbeats, and then he said, "I'm wondering how someone like you, with your educational background, reconciles your personal beliefs with what you know to be the incontravertible truth of hard science." It was her turn to laugh. "But it is science, Agent Mulder," she said. "Everything around us, everything in the universe, is based upon an atomic structure -- pure energy transformed into matter. All matter is transformable back into energy. What I have learned to do, based upon the old lore and aided by western science's knowledge of physics, is to learn in small ways how to manipulate enery. The so-called paranormal is but a different plane of existence where energy has been transformed into something unexpected." They walked a little further in silence, and then she mused, "The universe resonates with energies of all kinds. Our minds sing these harmonies when we dream, and it's a matter of learning to sing these songs in a conscious state." She glanced up at him, his face shadowed in the darkening twilight. "Although grasping the nature of the transformation is rather hard ... but I think you understand what I mean." Mulder shrugged, peering at her in the settling gloom. "I think so," he said dubiously. "I know you have some kind of ability, but I'm not sure what it is. I want to believe in an existence beyond what I can see, but I'm beginning to distrust in my own ... instinct." "It's hard to listen to yourself, especially when experience gets in the way," she said, keeping her tone even. This man was deliciously enigmatic, she thought, and the sound of his voice in the deepening night was doing strange things to her equilibrium. She was feeling light-headed, a warmth spreading through her stomach as she contemplated him, like she had taken a powerful drug and was fighting a kind of stupor in which she wanted to fall into his arms and drag him into the underbrush, pulling his clothes off of him in a frenzy. She calmed herself. She could feel that he thought of himself as something of a loser where women were concerned and to do that would frighten him to his very core. "You ought to talk to Scully," he said. "Maybe you could get her to concede in accepting the supernatural as an alternate reality." She deflated at the mention of his partner. She could detect an eerie association that surrounded him, like this person was actually present. It was obvious that she meant a great deal to him, but not as a lover or a friend, but something beyond that -- like their energies were linked. Interesting, she thought. I want to get him into a trance state and hear what his totem animals say about this. "I'll do my best," she said. She roused herself. "But I'm getting hungry again, and we're still about fifteen minutes away -- ten, if we step on it." "Lead on, Sacajawea," he said, teasing her. She shot him a mock glare over her shoulder and turned on the flashlight, breaking into a slight jogging step that ate up the terrain. He followed closely behind, so close that she could feel his warm breath on the back of her neck, decided she liked that. They reached the moonlodge as promised ten minutes later. Tehonig had already lit the woodstove and the oil lamp that sat on the small table inside. She loved her little lodge, having built it with her bare hands in a mushroom-induced three-day trance-state. It was watertight and could be warmed with the little woodstove that had been installed. They went inside, Mulder ducking a fraction to fit through the doorway. She had built sleeping platforms along the western wall in the style of her people, imitating the longhouse structure, and a table and a wash basin stood opposite. One shelf held an extensive library of books of all kinds, paperbacks vying for space with hardcovers and even some old leather-bound volumes lending the room that particularly dusty smell of libraries. False face and cornhusk masks were hung on all walls to invoke the guardian spirits of the forest. The one small window looked out over the brush to the neighbouring hillside. Lights dotted the very top -- this was the base called Arrowhead Peak. Mulder immediately went to the window and, rummaging around in his bag, came out with a pair of binoculars which he trained on the distant lights. Daisy set her bags on one of the platforms and set about making a pot of spaghetti, sending Tehonig out to fill the water jug. Some minutes later, with the water boiling on the wood stove, Daisy slipped beside Mulder and asked, "See anything interesting?" He lowered the binoculars. "No, unfortunately. It looks ordinary enough." She smiled at him. "You should wait a while. Usually the light show begins around 11 p.m." "What do these lights look like when you see them?" "It varies, but the most common one is a triangular-shaped luminous object that seems to hover silently and has pretty amazing maneuvering capabilities." She thought for a moment. "Actually -- the refraction percentage puts me in mind of some of the same properties present in the radar-deflective polycarbon we ended up developing for the Stealth bomber. It has the same kind of non-reflective surfactant." Mulder stared down at her for a long moment, his eyes faraway. He seemed to be about to say something and then shook his head, as though trying to grasp a distant memory. "What you have told me sounds strangely familiar ... I feel like I've seen something along the lines of what you've described ... but I can't seem to ..." he trailed off and frowned, his bewilderment a palpable thing. "It's like I've seen something like this up close but it's all a fog ..." She gently touched his arm. "Put it away for awhile. When you least expect it, the memory will resurface. Come on, we'll eat some pasta and drink some wine -- I think I've stashed a couple bottles of a lovely little Beaujolais somewhere --" She led him away from the window. He came away reluctantly. She made dinner rapidly. When she was sure Mulder wasn't watching her, she poured a bottle of wine into a decanter and, without any real awareness of doing it, added about four ounces of a psilocybin-based extract, one she had learned to concoct for quick and effortless plunging into the trance-state. She placed the decanter and wine glasses on the table. Throughout dinner, he seemed detached and faraway. Daisy did not press him, but kept up a light, quick patter, bouncing conversation off Tehonig and ignoring Mulder's obvious preoccupation. Iatseh sat at Tehonig's feet, watching them all with her intent doggy stare. Mulder ate absently and kept refilling his wine glass, gulping it down like it was water, but he didn't seem to exhibit any signs of incipient intoxication. Daisy drank about two glasses, knowing she didn't need as much to experience the trance-state, but even an accomplished wadayoneras needed the vision medicine to begin the journey. About an hour later, Mulder was staring at her with a wild, wide-eyed stare, his pupils dilated to the point of being black pools against the forest-green irises. Sweat was trickling down his brow, and he looked weak and shaken. Tehonig looked at his aunt. "Akwetonteh," he said disapprovingly. "You tricked him into taking the mushrooms." "FBI agents don't willingly swallow psychedelics, Tehonig," she said. She looked at Mulder, who was gaping and trying to speak, his eyes suddenly wild with fear. She went to him and spoke soothingly against his ear, cradling his head against her shoulder. "Listen to me, Tasitsho," she whispered. "We are going to take a little journey, you and I." She helped him to his feet. "Tehonig, we will be in the sweatlodge. I trust you and Iatseh to keep watch." Tehonig nodded and handed her a lantern. Balancing it on one wrist and her arm wrapped around Mulder's waist, she grabbed up their coats and went out the door, going up the short path deeper into the forest, struggling under his weight. The sweatlodge was cold and dark, draped with canvas and furs, a small hill in the night. She made him stand alone, swaying, while she went inside, lighting the fire for the steam. He looked at her and burst into maniacal laughter. "You really are a witch," he said, and like a cat was suddenly beside her, wrapping his arms around her and burying his face in her hair. She danced lightly away from him, giggling in the building hurricane of the drug. "I had already told you that," she said to him, and taking his hand, led him inside the sweatlodge. She began peeling off her clothes, and he eagerly followed, tearing at his clothing, his eyes locked on hers. She shook her head at him. "That is not what we are here for," she said calmly. She put the little stone circle at the centre of the lodge between them and made sure the water bucket was still full. She sat back, the lodge growing warmer and a light draft wafting on her skin. She looked at Mulder, admiring the strong breadth of his shoulders and arms, the slightly-furred chest, then steeled herself to her task at hand. She began chanting with her eyes closed, the ancient words clearing her mind. When she opened them, Mulder was not there. In his place were four animals, a fox, an eagle, a horse, and perhaps the most surprising of all, a mountain lion, its strange yellow eyes gazing into hers. It seemed to be nursing its front right paw. She composed herself. "Greetings, brothers," she said. "Do you speak for this man, for the one I call Tasitsho?" The fox stirred, sweeping its red tail tightly around its body. "I do, sister," it said. It looked up at her, its savagely intelligent eyes locking with hers. "We dwell in the man. I am his first totem, the totem of his name. These are the totems of his spirit. And this one," with a sweep of its small paw, indicated the mountain lion, "this animal is the spirit of his friend, who must live within him now that her mind has fled. We ask that you assist us to return her, for she has wandered far and is injured." The mountain lion gave a low, dangerous growl as Daisy came closer, saw a strange steel object embedded deep in the padding of its paw. It looked like nothing she had ever seen before, not a nail or a scalpel, but something mechanical, like a piece of machinery. The eagle stirred then, and the horse stamped and whinnied, shaking its glossy brown mane. "We want to see the strange place," screeched the bird. "We want to know. We want to journey. Come, sister -- fly with us!" She could not ignore the command, and felt her arms turning to wings as her spirit flew free of her body, spiralling through the smoke hole in the sweatlodge, into the dark sky where clouds roiled overhead.